Halfglass
03-18-2003, 03:01 PM
(This is not a typical report) I've mentioned my experiments with DXM on this site but what happened last weekend was the most EXTRA-ordinary thing (next to out-of-bodys) I've ever experienced in my life. (This stuff is so very psychedelic--what I thought LSD would be like before I first tried it.) I was planning to lay off it for awhile when, on the last trip (1000mg) I was injected by some kind of electric/plasma being and I went into some kind of disturbing time warp--that is a complete disconnecting of moments where I'd forget what I'd done or where I was.--------------------------However I couldn't get that entity out of my mind and I decided to go for it again. I dosed up with another gram but had to abort with xanax after my ego was flattened out of the blue after one hour. None-the-less I later (still tripping) began to relax and I started to realize I was dealing with other "I"s. I intuited that none of us/me trusted each other because we/me couldn't be sure of the other's doings.---------------------------------The next night I did 1200mgs and in the swirling taffy lights (you start to see these after about 500mgs) the other "I"s were out in force and "I" was spred out, smushed, disconnected; but relaxed this time. I began to think "truce" to the other "I"s.-------------------------------------Then I had an idea; I began reading from "Phantoms in the Brain" by world renown neuroscientist V.S. Ramachandran "...Indeed, most of your actions are carried out by a host of zombies who exist in harmony along with you inside your brain."-------------------------------To my amazement all the "I"s came flooding out seemingly interested in what was being read to them! Then they began to greet me and we began injecting into each other and inspecting each other. With eyes closed in the tunnels of plasma they looked like liquid robot-like things all technology metalic with orbs and tiny molecules(?) all performing duties, graceful and knowing colored (red,green,pink...).---------------------Then it happened again--the time flashes. I started to write on a piece of paper, "Can you fire the ego?...I am in a puzzel!" automatic like writting. Then I had a life flashback. I could hear a childhood friend calling me and my grandmother and cousins. Then I'm in a REALER THAN REAL place, climbing on a cliff face and a voice is saying "He's here now what?" Then I saw a mirror-like thing (shaped not unlike the yin-yang design) It was swirled on it's surface and I was made to understand that it was an answerless puzzle that was agreed apon (by all of humanity?)to be put into motion without anything or anyone knowing how it started. Then a man(?) reached out and touched the surface and it began to swirl and the combination or purpose for its beginning was lost, irrevocably until such time that the Over Soul understood itself---------------------------Then; I'm in a deep part of the plasma tunnles and there are people (humanity all) and we are trying to understand ourselves from the inside out. (This was no longer other "I"s but truly Other life/people.) There is a sense of reconciliation and all of humanity is there in these tunnels learning and reaching for each other blindly--but there is a sense there of happy progress--"people" peeking through tunnels and feeling, or reaching for the boundaries. It was absolutely mind blowing! I'd had my doubts about McKenna's Overmind until now, WOW! (The next morning it was my 40th birthday and my cat had had kittens in the night and the news said we were going to war....) I had double vision for two hours and my muscles wouldn't obey me (think Robert Deniro in "Awakenings" when he's trying to walk or comb his hair.)--------------------------Mystery upon mystery: but I feel enlightened--there is some kind of pupose I now belive, and thats alot coming from a man like me who has to experience it for myself before I belive anything I hear. (I wonder what will become of the Overmind if we humans blow ourselves up?) If anyone tries this stuff stay under 500mgs first time or two--pretty easy to take--anything higher can be scary at times and a sitter should be a must. Peace.
[ March 18, 2003, 06:17 PM: Message edited by: Halfglass ]
[ March 18, 2003, 06:17 PM: Message edited by: Halfglass ]