wiresoma
12-11-2002, 02:36 AM
I had my first dream;
There was a Presence. That is the best overall description I can give. It’s been three hours since ingestion and I am still watching for It to sneak up on me, and touch me. I feel good right now, very in touch with my physical being and the physical world.
About 45 minutes after ingestion, I began to get closed eye visuals. Nothing too wondrous; a slow beginning. There were most of the geometrical, web-like, blue-green-red colors similar to the fungus. There was not vivid imagery to speak of. The Presence was felt and nearly glimpsed as a large tubular structure, like a tunnel, moving towards me. It was comprised of the previously mentioned colors and geometrical, lattice-like structuring. The Presence began to move towards me from across the room. I seemed to have some control over what was happening. It felt as if It was allowing my infantile control over it’s introduction to Me. At one point it slowly enveloped me. All the time I was not sure if this was a beneficent Presence. Most of the time I was expecting it to strangle instead of hold Me. It did not strangle. At one point it seemed to be massaging my bowels and I began to think that it wanted me to purge, as if it was assisting me. I did not purge, did not even have the slightest inclination to. As I type, the words are coming effortlessly and I’m typing extremely fast and accurate. It seems magical. It’s been three hours and I have no psychedelic symptology to speak of. At the point when I felt the Presence leave I wanted so much for It to stay. But like I said, I was unsure whether it was going to scare me or not. I went to pee and stopped to look in the mirror and my eyes seemed otherworldly, they scared me. I almost couldn’t look. Much of the time, I was afraid to open my eyes because I felt It could make almost anything appear. Another time I went to the mirror and my torso became very large and exaggerated (I was shirtless.) My head seemed to be dropped in place, as if it was balancing up there. Without looking at my eyes, I could see my eyes blink which seemed very interesting and unusual. I had no music on, no lights, and that seemed to be the proper setting. I am still turning to look behind me as the bass pulsations from the latest Peter Gabriel album make me believe someone is walking up to me. To step right behind me and tap on my shoulder. I would turn and see something that would be intended to cause me to die from fright. It feels like that.
Well, let’s complete. I feel like the Presence let me meet it on my terms mostly. All along I felt it was capable of doing anything to me, to my reality. But it never crossed the line. It was very sympathetic to my small fears and did not play with them. I am remembering now the first time I stood up and relieved myself. I was sure that lying on the blanket on the floor would be a freshly, dead, bloody, hairy mammal. I was looking very intently as I approached the blanket in the dark and reached out to reassure myself that nothing was there except the blanket. Very scary. Some of the worst fears I have ever had. Please respond if you like.
There was a Presence. That is the best overall description I can give. It’s been three hours since ingestion and I am still watching for It to sneak up on me, and touch me. I feel good right now, very in touch with my physical being and the physical world.
About 45 minutes after ingestion, I began to get closed eye visuals. Nothing too wondrous; a slow beginning. There were most of the geometrical, web-like, blue-green-red colors similar to the fungus. There was not vivid imagery to speak of. The Presence was felt and nearly glimpsed as a large tubular structure, like a tunnel, moving towards me. It was comprised of the previously mentioned colors and geometrical, lattice-like structuring. The Presence began to move towards me from across the room. I seemed to have some control over what was happening. It felt as if It was allowing my infantile control over it’s introduction to Me. At one point it slowly enveloped me. All the time I was not sure if this was a beneficent Presence. Most of the time I was expecting it to strangle instead of hold Me. It did not strangle. At one point it seemed to be massaging my bowels and I began to think that it wanted me to purge, as if it was assisting me. I did not purge, did not even have the slightest inclination to. As I type, the words are coming effortlessly and I’m typing extremely fast and accurate. It seems magical. It’s been three hours and I have no psychedelic symptology to speak of. At the point when I felt the Presence leave I wanted so much for It to stay. But like I said, I was unsure whether it was going to scare me or not. I went to pee and stopped to look in the mirror and my eyes seemed otherworldly, they scared me. I almost couldn’t look. Much of the time, I was afraid to open my eyes because I felt It could make almost anything appear. Another time I went to the mirror and my torso became very large and exaggerated (I was shirtless.) My head seemed to be dropped in place, as if it was balancing up there. Without looking at my eyes, I could see my eyes blink which seemed very interesting and unusual. I had no music on, no lights, and that seemed to be the proper setting. I am still turning to look behind me as the bass pulsations from the latest Peter Gabriel album make me believe someone is walking up to me. To step right behind me and tap on my shoulder. I would turn and see something that would be intended to cause me to die from fright. It feels like that.
Well, let’s complete. I feel like the Presence let me meet it on my terms mostly. All along I felt it was capable of doing anything to me, to my reality. But it never crossed the line. It was very sympathetic to my small fears and did not play with them. I am remembering now the first time I stood up and relieved myself. I was sure that lying on the blanket on the floor would be a freshly, dead, bloody, hairy mammal. I was looking very intently as I approached the blanket in the dark and reached out to reassure myself that nothing was there except the blanket. Very scary. Some of the worst fears I have ever had. Please respond if you like.