Question about seeing things

[Adame]

Hello. I have been reading various posts on this board off and on for the past 6 months, but I've never actually posted anything myself. I really would like to hear what perspectives I can get on what I've been experiencing lately.

For as long as I can remember, I have visually (sober) seen little specks or pixels EVERYWHERE. They make up EVERYTHING. They often seem to be moving or swirling and have a somewhat rainbow color, even though there are so many and they are so small to really be described in words. Lately, these pixels have been becoming much more than just something I see. It's like they are more real now than they ever have been. I am also beginning to see outlines of things, almost like a transparent shadow. For example, as I gaze at the clock on my wall, it has a transparent, but visible outline. Sometimes these "shadows" move around, and change from being completely transparent to a black-transparent (where I can still see "through" it, but it has more of a black color). Other times, if I look at something, it seems to disappear and then reappear, like an ocean of these mysterious pixels are washing over it, and then receding back to where they came from. Also, sometimes when I'm talking to people, I can see an outline of their body (generally their head) that is also transparent, but not completely colorless. Sometimes this outline grows to be seemingly 6 inches thick above their head, but it is generally about 2 inches above.

I have heard about auras and such, but they have been described to me as being colorful and more radiant. I really don't know what I'm seeing, but the pixels and specks are becoming more and more dominant in my daily sight. Even in the dark these pixels are everywhere. As far as I know, everyone sees little pixels when they close their eyes...but I haven't been told by anyone that they see those same pixels when they have their eyes open.

Perhaps someone has some perspective to offer? This board seems to have good, mindful people on it, which is what encouraged me to post this. Thank you.

[Rimbaud]

Hello Adame,

I think you should see a doctor. This sounds like a neurological problem.

[Humming]

I disagree with Rimbaud...

I also see swirling masses of pixelated colors that form patterns and lattices and appear to me most noticably in the darkness. However, your perception is subjectively different from mine so I can't exactly say that we are seeing the same thing.

When I eat mushrooms this type of vision seems to expand and make itself more noticable. Some people might describe this as the Logos, or the beginning perception of the Logos. I see it as sort of a vortex of color that is very liquid and constantly shifting: subtle emanations of energy that are perceptible the more you concentrate and pay attention. I used to sit in my bed and watch these little pixels of energy move around, but I do that less now that it has lost some of its novelty for me.

I would recommend that instead of going to a doctor, you read some books about auras and visible energy spectrums, read some about light and the way that it's formed, and, if you want to, practice and develop these gifts of seeing.

[silentwolf]

Rimbaud...not cool. Operating on the assumption that because you do not see these things must imply a physical malfunction shows an extreme lack of both open-mindedness and spiritual experience. In my opinion, you'd do well to stare at a cave wall for a decade or so.

Adame, I concur with Humming. Researching what others have written about auras as well as electro-magnetic phenomen may help to enlighten you as to what you're seeing. A book that I found fascinating on the matter is "Psychic Vampires" by Dr. Joe Slate, published by Llewellyn. There are a lot of good books on the matter, including "Foundations of Tibetan Mysticism" by Anagarika Govinda, published by Weiser and "Clairvoyence and Occult Powers" by Swami Panchodasi, published by the Yogi Publication Society that you may also find helpful, though they can be hard to absorb on the first reading.

I've been seeing things quite similar to what you've described for a while, and it's normal for someone who practices meditation regularly or who has reincarnated from a life that was filled with spiritual work. A few friends of mine who trained in Hap Ki Do and myself were commenting during a class on the energies we could see radiating off of Sabunim, though he found the subject highly amusing.

Some people describe "auras" as being highly colorful and ascribe a lot of different colors to a lot of different things. Some of these people honestly see these colors around people, and some of these people are just highly creative and like to tell tales. When you see this watery-like energy around a person and it appears in a color, the only person who can tell what that colors means for you is you. The colors are not really there, because what you're seeing isn't in the light spectrum of Radio Frequency. When you do see a color, it will have a symbolic reference to a specific state to you, and you will color it with the proper symbolic color for the state you are sensing. In essence, coloration is dictated by your personal paradigm.

For instance, I see this energy (which I term "ether") as having a normal state of electric blue. This color to me means that it is gravitating more ether to itself, a sign of health. When it appears crystallized or white, that tells me the ether is in a fixed state, completely static and not flowing. Whether this is good or bad depends on the circumstances in which I see it. When it appears a fierce neon-red color, that tells me the ether is dispersing and signifies physical damage or ill health. When it appears to be a radiant golden color, this tells me that ether is being created. I have only seen the black a few times, and in those cases it was a sign of the ether being destroyed. Green to me is a sign of ether being converted into living tissues.

Keep in mind that's how I see it, and what you see may vary wildly from what I see.

I wouldn't recommend focusing on enhancing your ability to see this around every object unless you're consciously working on circulating your own energy. When you perceive this energy, you immediately harness it and influence it with your thoughts. Learn to control it in small amounts, starting with your own energy system, before you start manipulating the energy of your environment.

[Adame]

wow silentwolf...thank you very much for that input. it all makes sense to me, seriously. i know i shouldn't see a doctor (though i must admit that i toyed with the notion that i was slowly going blind!). that term "ether" is a term that i am familiar with. it seems to be the "essence" of this realm. what you said about my harnessing this energy and then it being immediately influenced by my thoughts also makes perfect sense. i'll certainly look into the books you suggested. thanks again for the input!

[Rimbaud]

Rimbaud...not cool. Operating on the assumption that because you do not see these things must imply a physical malfunction shows an extreme lack of both open-mindedness and spiritual experience. In my opinion, you'd do well to stare at a cave wall for a decade or so. I didn't mean a psychiatrist. I meant a medical doctor. I thought he might be talking about those sparkles you see when you are about to pass out. If you see those all the time it could mean you have a physical neurological disorder that will eventually prove fatal. You shouldn't ignore things like that or entertain wild fantasies about warning signs.

[Adame]

Rimbaud...i know what you mean. those sparkles that one sees when one is about to pass out is NOT what im referring to. i've seen those pass-out sparkles before. these are different. these are more in motion...and they aren't always plainly visible...sometimes i have to look for them. i figure that a neurological disorder would be if i ALWAYS had these sparkles obstructing my vision. ya know? thank you for your perspective, though.

[Eagle Wing]

Adame,

yes, i know the pixels you are talking about. It sounds like, as humming and silentwolf described, you are indeed seeing auras around peoples' heads. Apparently, that's the most "normal" place to see them, although as you open your awareness to perceiving more of this kind of energy, you can see full auras.

just to put things in a slightly different perspective, 10 years ago or so when i was curious about why these watery pixels (they do flow like water, with rainbow edges) seemed to move over everything, i asked my friend D what he thought. D had lots of experience with acid & was studying neuroscience so i thought he might know what's the deal with the pixels. Well, he said that the pixellation is really no different than the patterns of flowing visual distortions that one gets on psychedelics, which aren't truly "hallucinations".
What you're seeing is actually the mechanical functioning of your eye. Yeah, that's how the tripping neuroscientist sees it, it's not that "the world is made of pixels", but it's that your eye itself is made of pixels... you just happen to have a self-aware eye ;)

my personal feeling is that having a self-aware eye can "relax one's vision" to the point where seeing auras and other energetic phenomena is possible. Have no fear of those little pixels, they're just the details of your perceptual organ. It's very interesting how our consciousness can play with the energy that we perceive behind them, however, once we are aware of this energy... as silentwolf pointed out.
In my experience, state of mind can affect how "dark" or "light" i perceive the surrounding environment to be. For you, perhaps in the inward-and-outward pulsating of the pixillations, you are perceiving the power of your consciousness. I completely agree with silentwolf's advice: finding the source of the energy within yourself is the opening path; don't be seduced by the trap of thinking that what you're "seeing out there" is completely separate from you, or trying to manipulate the movements that you see behind the pixels. This kind of energy is a highly sensitive give-and-take with the environment, and at first it is tough to distinguish how much your own state of mind is involved. Best to be still and observe, inwardly and outwardly.

My only other advice is, take a nice walk alone in the forest and look around, notice the energy of different parts of the woods, find some nice friendly trees, and give them some appreciation amd love... breath in their oxygen and give them some CO2... see what happens.
peace

[ May 19, 2005, 04:46 PM: Message edited by: Eagle Wing ]

[silentwolf]

Quite well put, Eagle Wing. When you reach the point where you're able to discern your own aura in completion, and the aura of other humans, start looking at animals, plants, and inanimate objects...the displays are quite magnificent, and nothing we can manage with fireworks or special effects gives it justice.

[Humming]

"just to put things in a slightly different perspective, 10 years ago or so when i was curious about why these watery pixels (they do flow like water, with rainbow edges) seemed to move over everything, i asked my friend D what he thought. D had lots of experience with acid & was studying neuroscience so i thought he might know what's the deal with the pixels. Well, he said that the pixellation is really no different than the patterns of flowing visual distortions that one gets on psychedelics, which aren't truly 'hallucinations'"

That reminds me: when I began to see the type of vision being described here, after one of my intense mushroom trips, I was very curious about this type of vision myself so I began to search; I learned somewhere that what I was seeing (or at least part of what I was seeing) were blood vessels moving around within my eyes.

If you focus while looking indirectly at the sun or a strong light source, you will see little blobs of translucent shapes spinning around and cascading through your vision kind of like raindrops down a car window. I remember lying in the grass while I was lifeguarding this past summer and just watching these crazy splotches move around at different speeds in my vision. If you haven't done that, you should try--it's rather entertaining, especially when you're bored at your job. =)

[Adame]

yes, Humming, i know what you mean about those "blobs." i CAN, however, differentiate between those blobs that kinda look like little worms floating and the actual pixels that im talking about. i've noticed that sometimes when i wake up in the morning, i can see these little wormy-things floating within my vision. after rubbing my eyes and looking closely in the mirror, i can see that these "worm" things are just little strings of mucous or some other related substance that goes away if i make it go away. the pixels themselves are a different story. they don't seem to have anything that can overpower them, like the eye-mucous.

i noticed something new last night. i work at a movie theatre, and i am a projectionist (the guy who starts the movies). in the booth, there are seven big projection machines operating. well, i was relaxing my vision on one of them, and i noticed that the pixels around the machine were moving away from it in a wavelike fashion. naturally, i interpreted this as energy flow that i can see. it was very interesting and gave me some clarity on what exactly im seeing. also, a friend of mine who just came back from Peru told me that he met up with a shaman who told him that all of those pixels are the Prana. i figure that Prana is another way of referring to ether, or energy force, or essence, etc. are they all the same thing with different names? i find it satisfying to refer to all the pixels as "THE Essence." it seems to make sense to me, for now.

[silentwolf]

Yes, prana, chi, qi, ki, ether, spirit of god, orgone, they're all the same thing. From what I understand, some scientists are starting to call it "plasma" and the "4th state of matter" as well.

Keep in mind that the ether, while considered energy, has no volition of its own accord ~ it takes the outside force of a conscience-created emotion (though sometimes the creator of this emotion does not realize it has been created,) to give it volition and make it move, be it gathering, dispersing, creating it, or nullifying it. It also has a tendency to move in spirals once it gets pushed into volition.

Ether is nothingness in motion. When it is formed, it is by consciousness influencing non-existence to start moving. When it is annihilated, it is by the influence of the same awareness coaxing it into non-existence by stopping its motions. Gravitation and radiation are the two principles that maintain the ether, and the reason it can be held in dispersing, static, or gathering states. When you influence it to move, you are not imparting motion to it; truthfully, you are rearranging one piece to manipulate the whole.